It is no secret that I’ve focused much of my life on results-based leadership, which, as I walk more closely with Jesus, doesn’t seem to be biblical. Often this pull for results comes from my deep desire to be found worthy in my job. I desire to be considered a bargain—pulling more than my weight and contributing significantly. Yet, as I read Scripture today, I find something different.
In the first chapter of 2 Peter, we see a man who has walked with Jesus coming to the end of his life. What is it that Peter most wants to leave behind? And how does it compare with what we want? For Peter, he wants the believers (the brethren in KJV and my brothers and sisters in NIV) to make every effort to confirm their [your] calling and election so that they will not stumble. He wants them to have a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of Jesus Christ. Why does this concern Peter so much, and why should I be concerned about eternity rather than the results I want to see?
Our world is constantly changing. As a Christian, it’s hard to know how to affect it in ways that point others to Christ. Spending time in deep communion with Jesus allows me to be exposed to His higher thinking, which is very different from my own. Isaiah 55:9 (NIV) says it plainly, “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”
Today, I’m concerned about a course we’ve created here at Christian Women’s Leadership Center. It is an outstanding course, and I’d love to have 200 women go through the course together. It is my carnal nature that seeks the number 200, but it is my deep longing to connect with women that causes me to want many women to take the course. In the Leadership Theory course, one’s desire for leadership is met with the teachings of Dr. Noel Forlini, who challenges us to make known the weaknesses we have rather than masking or hiding them. Should we choose to lead with these weaknesses, this new vulnerable style of leading may allow us to more effectively point others to Jesus Christ, our real example.
Today, I confess one of my many weaknesses. My carnal nature desires results that can be counted—even though I know that Jesus’ love within me yearns to draw women closer to Him. To sit at His table banqueting together for four weeks and learning from one another are my real desires, but my sinful nature thinks that setting the table for 200 would be most enjoyable.
Whether 200 or 5 women, Lord, make my desires match Yours. Make my thoughts higher, as Your thoughts are higher. May my concerns be, like Peter’s concerns, that each woman will confirm her calling and not stumble. May we each have a place at the real banquet table in the eternal kingdom.
Claudia Johnson, CWLC Leadership Consultant